Stop masturbating diary
holly fuck i am being so honest
simple:)) i have achieved experiences masturbating enough, doing it with every gesture, like masturabting on pillow, on washbasin, on the wall, on the table, on the paper, in the blanket, in my socks, on girls as well because so far i think having fucking girl is less entertaining the masturbate in front of them. also with instruments, like with oil like the one in the kicthen not specialized for sex, with soap, with shampoo, trynna find some holes like the coke bottle hole, but its too small obviously. and the most often i used to masturbate is laptop of course, i mean not to fuck laptop but cumming in front of internet girl.
3 years of masturbating is really enough for me — ive experienced enough. stopping masturbating is like stopping my favorite sport badminton. fortunately i have realized early that masturbating is wasting my life, unlike badminton i played it for 10 years, only at 19 year old i started to introspected that playing badminton is hindering my personal growth.
i want to have more energy on doing more meaningful things, i want to be different because i know a lot of people they cant control themselves from masturbation, also i want to improve myself as much as possible by doing meanigful things in every single moment, clearly masturbation isnt on the list:))
who masturbate?
i might be giving too much pressure on myself about not to masturbate, because i know most of my surroundings masturbate, wait actually i dont know , i never asked them, i apologize, i take back what i said, i will be asking strangers questions about masturbating now.ri BUt, still, i believe a lot of muslim or christian do masturbate, might even more, because sometimes the more you feel like there is a taboo or rules, the more you want to break it.
what are the obstacle i am facing with?
@1 accessible : penis is on my body, internet and phone is everywhere. i could literally masturbate whereever i want, except in public, but maybe one day i will be doing it in public, because i know limitation is what restrict our ability, some cynicism they could do masturbate in public, they are my goal
@ 2 interesting : not gonna lie, i never think the feeling that orgasm brings to me is feeling bad, like eating my favorite mint chocolate ice cream, it taste super good! why stop eating it??
@ 3 hard to have sex without relationship with girl : there are several reasons about this.
- most of the girls from asian region are still close-minded in terms of sex in 2020, for example, most of my life so far have been living in taiwan,living in india for a month, and currently living in eastern part of russia.
- all my life i have been living in asia so far
- girls have boyfriend, holly fuck especially in russia, most of the girls already have boyfriend, and their dream is to marry and have babies. well but also russian divorced so freaking much, but this would be another article:))
- girls are religious
- i am not gay
- i dont look super handsome, and i dont have big muscles.
@ 4 easy: masturbating is not like cooking food, cooking food needs maybe 10 minutes, but i could touch my penus within 10 seconds.
@ 5 no immediate consequence: now this is the most dangerous one, i know 99.999 percent of human beings suffered from this, since the bad consequences of doing masturbating, like wasting my 40 minutes(my avergae masturbation time), its not so bad for a day, but in the long run, masturbating 40 minutes 2 times in a week , is 133 hours in 2 years!!
what are my methods to stop?
@1 watch naruto immediately whenever i have the feeling of horniness, once i masturbate means that more people will suffer because my success of helping people would be delayed by masturbating
@ 2 call my family, feeling the care from my family could make me feel like i should not waste their care and expectation of me being successful on my goal
@ 3 sleep immediately because i realize that in most cases i masturbate when i feel tired, my brain unable to control myself
@ 4 meditate: it’s still hard for me at this point, but i believe the more frequent i practice meditate the more i could harness the tool
next goal?
stop masturbate until i fuck next girl
