Diary: Humiliation

One of the most humiliating things that happened to me is probably teachers punished me in front of the class.

Some people might argue: “Wait!! Almost everyone experience this!”

But one thing that they didn’t know is

My teacher allow whole classroom to laugh at me

My teacher allow classmates to throw paper ball and pencil at me. I thought my teacher would stop them, but she decided to humiliate more: “Don’t stop throwing, his mom said he is capable of withstanding this, and if he cannot, his mom allow me to punish him even more by taking away his sticker”

I was literally sitting next to teacher surrounding by classmates laughing at me.

I told Hermonie about my being humiliated story.

Surprisingly, she wasn’t trying to hug me or say something to comfort me(i wasn’t seeking for comfort by this is what usual people will do)

She was silent.

I was lucky enough to not walk away but ask her

“What is your attitude of my story? Do you have different perspective?”

She said: “Everyone has trauma(something that is mistaken, misinterpret and haven't realized)in their childhood, when these teachers still keep traumas, they would put these on other people”

I said: “I’m so happy that you enlightened me Hermonie, I want to practice not to revenge, not to forget but to forgive my teacher. Because I start to forgive people who cause me suffering, I could stop acting evilly, I could reduce causing suffering on others. I could help more people