diary: i lied that i approached girls not for sex
how did i lie?
i was using tandem, an app for learning languages. but sometimes if i was horny, actually 3 months ago, it happened very often, i would use tandem as app to ask girls if they want to video chat with me so that i could masturbate in front of them.
but when i successfully video chat with a girl, she asked me “why do i only send messages to girls not boys”. instead of telling her, i was not focusing on learning languages but video chat with girls, and simply because i like girl appearance more than boys, i told her, “guys always ignore me”.
should i be completely honest about my hobby include sex?
i realized if i were to lie about my hobby, or goal about having sex with girls NOT WITH BOYS. i would have lesser chance to attract girls who dont reject the idea of having sex with me in the future too.
there is even a bonus effect, if i were to be more opened and share about my hobby is having sex, i could directly filter out girls who are potentially shy and dont want to have one afternoon stand with me.
