diary: first time in my life meeting my soul mate
although this article its about my personal diary, but i think it would be helpful for people , because after you read my articles you would realize there are so many people who share the same characteristic as you.
storybackground:i am eric, a nomad in russia now, mostly i use couchsurfing to find people who willing to let me sleep at their home, today i found my soul mate in irkutsk(siberia), his name is kolya
what is my definition of soul mate?
i dont even google what does “soul mate” mean, to be honest, before today i dont even use this word, because i dont even know what does “friend” mean to me, i dont think i have friend.
soul mate mean to me, a person who share super many of similarities/same characteristic with me
similarities/ same characteristics with kolya
trying to love everyone: one of my dream is to take care of everyone’s feeling, because at this stage of my life i believe that physical body isnt the real representative of people, physical body is just a puppet, what really matter is consciousness inside us. and each individual contain a tiny fraction of consciousness, one of our goal in our life is to integrate soooo many pieces of consciousness into one big consciousness — humanity.
as for kolya, he didnt explain to me, but he said he agree with me about my consciousness theory , he even wrote down his principle of life is to love everyone.
having one addiction: he smoke super much, every 30 minutes he must smoke one cigarette, as for me i fucking hate to masturbate. i want to quit, but still i cannot quit completely
likes to learn a lot of things and ask a lot of questions: my score at school suck, i dont have diploma from high school and i dropped out of university but i like to learn experiences and answers from strangers, on top of that, i learn so many new things on youtube, i am also planning to learn spanish and arabic in the future, currently learning russian.
as for kolya: he could do ball tricks, he is also learning massage as me, he could build so many houses, as a matter of fact, he is living a big house build by himself
we both ask super much questions to one another
we both like long hair
ask others opinion: this is different from asking questions like “ what is your dream”, im talking about, if we are sharing our life story, we would be curious about what others think what i think what he think, he/i agree or disagree i agree.
actively learn english: although my english is better than him, but he holds a way more serious attitude towards learning english than most of the russian ive met like those who claim “i want to learn english so much”
he even requested : “eric may we speak more english” , which is super surprised, special, awkward for me, because i am usually the person who request this and i also want to practice more russian.
we should fuck more , it’s strange that animal could fuck on street but human cannot:
he agree with me that human beings are having less freedom than most of the animals
but the difference between me is that i am going to advocate having sex in public in the near future.
no limitation no rule
messy home: i have sleepover with more than 80 houses in my life, his houses is the first house that is messy for such a long time, it still remain the same messy level as i first visited, i stayed at his house for 12 days.
my room in my hometown, is also as messy as his, and i dont really feel the need to clean it. my family, parents, brother, aunties, grandma, fucking hate me because of this.
for me, as long as i know where did i put my stuff and i could find it, its fine.i dont want to waste my energy on arranging things. things are destined to be messy according to “entrophy”.
wearing not “pretty” clothe: i used to be a person who care about wearing pretty clothe so much, i used to buy new clothe every 5 days when i was 19, but once i dropped out of university, i started to stop buying clothe, and started to wear clothe which young people wont wear, simply because i started to realize what’s more important to me in my life.
kolya is the same, everyday wearing pretty much the same clothe
irregular life style: my parents warned me every 3 days that having a regular lifestyle is very important, but i probably has the most/worse regular lifestyle than most of the city people. because every since i dropped out from university, even when studying 1st year in university, i would walk so fast back to my dorm just to sleep for 50 minutes then go to the next class, i sometimes fall asleep at 7, 8, 9 , 10, until 2 is possible.waking up from 4 to 12.
kolya always promises to wake up at sometimes but never wake up at the time as he told me.
he has two girlfriend: i never had a girlfriend, but i know in the future there will be so many girls being attracted by me, just like naruto who was being disliked by people , especially girls , but in the future, everyone likes him.
we both so cool about people stealing thing: most of the people, even young people, even people who claim that they are super openminded, would feel negatively emotional about people stealing stuff. do you agree with me?
but when kolya’s friend share with me that he has once stole a motorcycle, i was like “ holly fuck, this is so fucking cool!”
then i asked kolya’s opinion about his friend’s behavior, he also reacted the same. the coolest part is we bogth exchange our “stealing experience”, i shared with him that i stole some small magnets from bookstore when i was 13.
not similar part
shy: he was very surprised that i have the courage to ask a random strangers “do you want to make porn with me”, by using my russian skill, talking for 20 minutes. kolya told me he couldn’t do it .
i am not shy to interact with nearly all kind of strangers because i have been practicing for 2 years, but except the one who walk like zombie(there are so many in russia).
but i think after some practice he will no longer be shy, afterall he has a daughter, i mean, he cannot just randomly flirt with girls on the street, i mean i would, but normally people would not, if they have wife.
